Tuesday, August 17, 2010

What mind wants ??

It's so weird that, we have little or no control over what our mind wants or wants to think.
Human mind is weird. Sometimes it wants to always remain happy and sometimes............... it wants to go in sadness dungeon bcoz it is happy for a really significant amount of time. Sometime it wants to be in dormant mode of thinking or enjoying and sometimes...... it wants to think weird things like it wants to be both happy and sad at the same time.
Mind seeks for Unity in thought and feel..
All the books I’ve liked and read have been read and appreciated by other people. And all the songs I’ve loved have been heard by other people. And that girl that’s pretty to me is pretty to other people also. And we know that if, we look at these facts when we are happy, we feel great because.. tell me .. yes tell me.. why we feel happy??
because this describes "unity"..

Mind seeks for resemblance...
It’s like when you are excited about a girl(say XYZ) and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. Now suppose that your talking term with girl XYZ is no more or has gone bitter. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you go mad. And all you want is to always see and  feel happy for them because you know that if they do, then it means you’re happy too with your that phase of life. why we relate our issues with others so often ??? why we feel sad and irritated to see people happy in such situation???

Mind seeks for diving deep in thoughts sometimes..
It rained last night and I reached my apartment drenched and dripping and found my washroom mirror also need a wash. Removing water from the mirror I got startled to see my own face. Looked inside my eyes and I thought for a while "Is it me ????".
Watching the blades of  fan spinning and observed that the center remains still. An infinite silence pervades my eyes and I finally begin to see what I am..
Observing a small leaf spining at the end of invisible spiders thread .. under my unrest soul all anguish and whispers falling asleep.. and I realised gradually that what I am ... It was really deep..

Mind wants to read people..
I look at people holding hands finger entwined in the theatre, malls and functions and I try hard to think how it all works.Last week I was in club, sitting in the background, tapping my toe, and wondering how many couples will dance to 'their song' .  In the hallways, I saw a lonely shy girl wearing red tshirt and guys’ jackets(may be of her boyfriend) waiting. I saw ppl cheering, shouting over little things as if they just want to enjoy the moment at any cost and trying to be happy for tonight and I thought about the idea of property. And I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are.

and my mind keeps on bewildering me ..