Inner Polymath

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

What mind wants ??

It's so weird that, we have little or no control over what our mind wants or wants to think.
Human mind is weird. Sometimes it wants to always remain happy and sometimes............... it wants to go in sadness dungeon bcoz it is happy for a really significant amount of time. Sometime it wants to be in dormant mode of thinking or enjoying and sometimes...... it wants to think weird things like it wants to be both happy and sad at the same time.
Mind seeks for Unity in thought and feel..
All the books I’ve liked and read have been read and appreciated by other people. And all the songs I’ve loved have been heard by other people. And that girl that’s pretty to me is pretty to other people also. And we know that if, we look at these facts when we are happy, we feel great because.. tell me .. yes tell me.. why we feel happy??
because this describes "unity"..

Mind seeks for resemblance...
It’s like when you are excited about a girl(say XYZ) and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. Now suppose that your talking term with girl XYZ is no more or has gone bitter. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you go mad. And all you want is to always see and feel happy for them because you know that if they do, then it means you’re happy too with your that phase of life. why we relate our issues with others so often ??? why we feel sad and irritated to see people happy in such situation???

Mind seeks for diving deep in thoughts sometimes..
It rained last night and I reached my apartment drenched and dripping and found my washroom mirror also need a wash. Removing water from the mirror I got startled to see my own face. Looked inside my eyes and I thought for a while "Is it me ????".
Watching the blades of fan spinning and observed that the center remains still. An infinite silence pervades my eyes and I finally begin to see what I am..
Observing a small leaf spining at the end of invisible spiders thread .. under my unrest soul all anguish and whispers falling asleep.. and I realised gradually that what I am ... It was really deep..

Mind wants to read people..
I look at people holding hands finger entwined in the theatre, malls and functions and I try hard to think how it all works.Last week I was in club, sitting in the background, tapping my toe, and wondering how many couples will dance to 'their song' . In the hallways, I saw a lonely shy girl wearing red tshirt and guys’ jackets(may be of her boyfriend) waiting. I saw ppl cheering, shouting over little things as if they just want to enjoy the moment at any cost and trying to be happy for tonight and I thought about the idea of property. And I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are.

and my mind keeps on bewildering me ..

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Poems from my heart

Request: Please read the poems slowly so as to understand the essense and share/like, if you like it

Dreams

Who says dreams are evitable..
It has the power to make you babble..
It's the window to show you yourself deep..
And it has the power to poison your sleep..
Some colors of dreams ain't in waking spectrum..
Avoiding it is like climbing ice fulcrum..
Dreams are free so set your dreams free..
Dear, you can bound urself while waking, but in dreams you'll come to me..

I will show you

I will show you all the woodland greens,
I will show you all the peaceful scenes.
I will show you winter snows and frost,
I will show you waters tempest-tossed.

I will show you flowers in the close,
I will show you colours of lilly, tulip and rose.
I will show you rivers and rumbling streams,
I will show you youthful hopes and dreams.

I will show you stars, the moon, the sun,
I will show you deeds of kindness done.
I will show you joy, I will show you care,
And still I hold your love in doubting air.

Without You

Rain can't catch me and wind can't blow....
Where i am going no one know...
There is hole in my heart, when the rain gets in...
So, I pull up my collar and start again...
Don't know how long this struggle without you will last..
But i know that it would end with poured up heart and me breathing fast..

Come Back to me

When tears come streaming down your face..
When you lose something you can't replace..
When you don't get even a one thing in life, what you need..
When the frozen tears of memory starts to bleed..
When you wander alone and feel like stray..
When your own shadow begins to betray..

Come back to me......

I will keep waiting for you till my memory will exist..
I will keep looking at the moon, to catch your glance atleast..

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Friday, February 26, 2010

Budget 2010-2011

24th February, Much awaited day for many but, normal day for most Indians.
And here comes another budget day. A survey done a few years ago revealed that 17% of Indians do not follow the budget at all and another 30% are barely interested in it(Source: Times of India).

That means a large group of Indian population has nothing to do with budget. For me if somebody would ask, what budget day is? My answer would be:It's little tinkering, shuffling and moving of taxation rates here and there to make citizens fool. Revisions in price of some items, or rather I can say that it has lots of accounting stuffs that draws little or no interest from my side (as I have enough money for not diving deep in details of prices of Rice, Sugar and other basic needed commodities).

But but for no reason I followed the BUDGET2010 to the level I could. Here are my conclusions:
There is no reason to build up so much of drama around the finance minister's(Currently Pranab Mukhaerjee is 28th FM list: List ) presentation in Parliament and then minutely dissecting it. Let's treat it as an annual financial statement by the government and nothing more. What I felt wrong is that the budget is a holdover from the days of a planned economy and the License RAJ(which is obsolete but still followed in India for no reason :( ). It makes a little sense in a rapidly changing and globalising world. Instead my suggestion is Budget could be put on Internet and it's content widely distributed and circulated. This could be followed by a debate in Parliament with Representatives of Ideas, controversies, Volunteers etc. That could make a better sense.

This year the budget was the shuffling of pricing among Direct Taxes, Proposals(which Indian Govt fails to achieve80% of time) and Indirect Taxes. Every Year if we look for the Plans it's Universal Set of alllll problems and if followed, it may eradicate poverty, illetracy and corruption from the root. But WE fail every year and again look for the Budget Box session and glibtalk. Well Budget is in favour of Rural People(as always :)). Some Points of our interests

Tax exemption rates much more minimised for each earning group belt.
Central Excise raised 8% to 10% on all non-petroleum prducts and 1 Rs. raised on diesel and petrol. Similary for crude petroleum, Diesel and Refined Products has their Basic duties restored to 5%, 7.5% and 10%.
Raised excise duty on non-smoking tobacco,snuff,chewing tobacco etc.
Custom duty raised by around 50% on Valuable metals (Platinum, Gold, Silver).
Specified inputs for orthopaedic implants exempted from import duty.
Toy Ballons and other low budget toys fully exempted from Central Excise Duty.
Transportation by roads of cereals, pulses, vegetables exempted from service tax.
Excise duty on large cars, SUVs and CUVs raised by 22%.

Some Promises in Proposals are:

Rs. 40,100 crore for Mahatma Gandhi National Rural Employment Guarantee Scheme.
Rs 48,000 crore allocated for rural infrastructure programmers under Bharat Nirman.
Unit cost under Indira Awas Yojna up to Rs. 45,000 in the plains and to Rs. 48,500
Allocation for urban development up by more than 75% from Rs. 3060 crore to Rs. 5400 crore. Similarly for Housing & Urban Poverty Alleviation raised.
Housing loans scheme subvention for 1% till 31st march 2011.
Raised fund in Plans for Schools education, Women and Child development, Social Security, Rashtriya Swasthya Bima Yojna, Mahila Kisan Sashaktikaran Pariyojna to meet needs of women farmers. Social Justice and Empowerment.
Rs. 16,500 Crore provided to ensure that public sector banks attain a minimum 8% Tier-I capital by March 31st 2011.

All this sounds really encouraging. But I went through the proposals and plans of all Budgets summit, I found all year's plan are flooded with such proposals. All this is glib talk and lame things. Rural Areas are still far away to see electric bulbs, Roads and Bridges not constructed, Farmers still committing suicide, Child Marriages still in full practice, Cases of parading women naked, beaten and forced to eat human excrement by villagers after branding them as witches are still found in monthly basis. THEN WHERE IS THE GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT??

All Roads and Bridges are constructed in Files, All FIRs and Police case are solved in Papers, All Village got electric connections in Files (There are cases when a Collector came to village to inspect conditions of progress, few lights are shown to him glowing with Battery in the back end and an arranged buffet for him with colorful lights operated with battery or with Tractor's Generation. Is that Collector fool ?? No... All this people are part of the system and they are imbecile enough to ignore everything for their personal favour, profit, upper management pressures).

Owls cannot see in day, you know why ?? because Owls are blinded by light.. We are just another Owl riding bikes, bowling, eating pizza and burgers, spending uselessly on chocolates, dresses and gifts like anything. We never care about what's the living status of our watchmen, autorickshaw driver and other people who provide us the basic things. If we are ignoring all this today, this all will revoke to us one day.

While browsing through wikipedia for the history of Budget I found that like many of India's parliamentary traditions, the annual budget is also borrowed from British. Traditions like the Budget Box(Red Leather briefcase in case of British but, Cherry red in India :) where the budget speech is carried to the House of Common that is Parliament) is exact copy from the British parliament (Well, it makes little sense here.). But the irony is that while the budget has become a fairly routine event in Britain, we still like to go bananas(following like crazy) over the event of Budget year after year. If the pomp show surrounding the Budget will be diminished or removed, not too many people would complain. The only losers would be Finance Minister and a few Politics Pundits who enjoy their moment in the sun once a year.

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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Prayers

Hello Reader

Well for those who don't know Me(if you are not among my college or school folks). I am just another decent guy with lots of weird thinking and ambition in his mind.

This is Om Sao. A 23 yr Male from Hyderabad, India. Working
in Oracle India Development Centre as Application Developer. NIT-Tiruchirappalli B.Tech Computer Science and Engineering 2005-09 Batch. I don't think I am a good writer and giving reading it a go from my side to you is a better friendly suggestion. But yes, you can start off if you have nothing to do... Wait Wait.... What am I writing ?? I just looked on my wallclock it's 1:05AM (Just Now I yawned, feeling drowsy thinking about it's best time to hit the bed, sorry only bedding(no bed) I have in floor :) )

Well, as I am typing my thoughts on the fly.. So it's time to shout out Night Prayer(because it's one old habbit of mine(don't know since when I am following without any fruitFULL outcome :)).

I remember the time when I was in primary standard in school, where apart from some 6 subjects, we were taught to PRAY :). "Ask and you shall Receive" says Bible and we had been trained well in art of 'asking'. Not just that, we were also taught to do small acts of kindness, to be generous and cultivate virtues and values. We were said that, some guardians angels are watching us day and night constantly.

So, in this way I started PRAYING. I guess most of you also started in same way. Right ?? Difference may come in that, who taught you (In school or in home). And I remember what my prayers were like, at that time. In school I and my other friends used to pray regularly for a variety of favours (you know ?? we used to discuss the prayers in class that what we asked today ?? :) ). There was one girl(actually there were many :) but I used to talk to that very particular girl only) and I still remember that what her prayers were like ( appeals for a bright, sunny morning on sports day, for flowers to bloom in school garden in time, for puppies on the way to school to be safe and healthy (how innocent those days were :)) . And exactly 180 degrees opposite to it my prayers used to had like "Please God give measles to Kiran Mam (for this kind of prayers I used to squeeze my eyes shut :) )... as she gave me a zero in Social Science especially on the ass so that, she couldn't sit much in class and torture us.. Please God Please......". But Kiran Mam looked none the worse than she was, in fact, she seemed to appear even better with each passing day. I felt like my prayers went unanswered :( .. But I didn't give up praying, however. when I was in class 6th or 7th. I remember that, in Prayer assembly some girls fainting down on sunny days and then teachers, staffs rushing to give them some Active juice and supporting them to move to classroom(For this I used to think as, nice way to escape from boring assembly). I used to observe them carefully and thinking( more like praying) " Though girls in assembly keep dropping around me like nine pins. I feel so jealous of them GOD, especially when they are fussed over and given a glass of yummy orange juice. Can't you let me have blackout too, just once ??". But no!!! HE never heard my Prayers yaar... :( (I think HE moreover decided to ignore my pleas ).

I still remember one of my friend fractured a bone in his elbow. His hand was in cast of Plaster of Paris and he turned in a hero of class overnight :). My classmates rallied around him to touch the cast and write "get well soon" and other encouraging messages on white plaster. His friend list grown in a week like anything. Girls of my class started talking to him affectionately (sob sob :( ) and feeding him their lunch box(with their hands...what the f**k man ??? Girls are really stupid... How many boys agree with me ??? YES, all of you :) That's great :) ..). He became most happening guy of the class overday. Seeing all these I was consumed by envy and again started pleading to GOD "Can't you do anything like that with me also ? I also want to feel important. It's not fair GOD. I want a fracture NOWWW...Perhaps you can break my hand... Wait wait wait.. then how I will play marbles ?? Okay my foot, but not the right one.. Please. "(so silly and stupid I was :) ). But I had no such luck. All my pleas seem to have fallen on GOD's deaf ears. "Why HE never listens me ??" that was my question for all anguish. May be he doesn't exist at all. I tried my best. I slid down the stairs sidewalls very fastly backward and forward also :). I raced up and down the staircase three steps at a time and then four and sometime even jumped off the swing with the gleam of hope that, I would get atleast sprain on my ankle (not Right ankle :) ). But he never listened me.. not only this.. what I fetched in return??

my unscathed body.
a call from Principal of the school(I was harrassed that I will not be allowed to attend 5 games period because I am too wild to play with others and mischievous also :( ).

Now, much later, when life had moved me beyond childish dreams and demands. When I have grown up to adulthood having weathered many challenges in life. I faced many deep down moments and ecstatic moments too.

Now I think that, I learnt the true meaning of Prayers that go unanswered. And, that when HE leaves some prayers unanswered, it is HIS way of showing us that, what is good and what is bad for us. HE does answer every single prayer but in HIS own time and sometimes, when a prayer goes unanswered, that is the ANSWER.

Well guys much of philosphy for now :). I am very normal guy and have only prayer to god tonight that, "I have few dreams in life some for me, some for others and some for someone very special. Please answer these all prayers positively and as soon as possible. (Quick response will be appreciated :) :) )".. GOD, I am so greeeedddyyyy.. :);) :) ;) hahahahhahaahahaha ...

One thing. if you think that this blog is nice enough. Pls do comment it, I want counter of feedbacks.. Pls. then only I will think of writing something else...

Ohhh Man!!! it's 2:10AM.. it's time to hit bed now.. sorry bedding without bed :) :)

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